Examine the most fucked up things in your life. Reflect on them. Think about them every day. Let it engulf you.
Examine what you hate about yourself. Look in the mirror.
Think long and hard about what you have to do in life.
Think long and hard about what relationships you think you need in your life.
Think long and hard about your differences.
Compare yourself to everyone.
Be alone. Don’t connect.
Have great expectations with everything and everyone.
Make yourself feel guilty, all the time.
Read The Bell Jar your freshman year of high school and then do a huge project on it!
Imagine all the shit you don’t have to worry about if you hide from life.
Think about how fucked up the world is. And then prevent yourself from wanting to go along with it.
Talk about money and how you think your life is supposed to go but isn’t going.